So I've been searching for a topic to write a new blog entry about for a week or so now and I've been struggling for a way to describe what my life is like since the arrival of our twins two months ago. Then it came to me one day in the shower (don't we all do some of our best thinking in the shower? I think it's the only quiet time I get during the day!) my life is a balancing act!
I'm always trying to balance something at the least amount of expense to somethingelse.
Balancing the needs of one kid against the needs of another. Trying to decide who needs something right this second and who can wait a couple of minutes. Changing a poopy diaper before a wet diaper. Feeding the babies while making Tate wait for a cup of water. Trying to balance their emotional needs with their physical needs. Most of all trying to balance giving them plenty of love with plenty of discipline. Trying to decide what infraction needs a time out and what can be dealt with by simply saying "no" or "don't do that again." It's not easy. Most days it feels like I'm just putting out fires and not really getting anything productive done. Trying to spend one on one quality time with each kid is limited to a few stolen moments while everyone else is quiet. Trying to encourage them to learn to play alone but also trying to encourage them to spend time together as a group and appreciate how special having three siblings to play with is.
Personally, I spend a lot of time trying to balance meeting their needs and meeting my own. Exactly how long can I go before I really, really, really have to go to the bathroom? Getting just enough sleep at night to function the next day. Trying to balance the everyday chores with the things that need to get done for Christmas. What needs done today and what can be put off to another day. And trying to be thankful that we've gotten through another day while reminding myself to treasure each day because they'll all be grown before I know it. Time goes too quickly.
