Torn

We have some big decisions to make about our house. When we bought our house seven years ago we knew that one day they would be buildiing new houses in a new neighborhood further back our main street. I had always hoped that when that happened we would be ready to move. When they made the big announcement last summer that the new home lots would be available for purchase this fall I got so excited.

I have been doing everything in my power to gather as much information as possible about the new neighborhood and about the value of our current house. We are hopeful that everything will work out, but I'm nervous that it won't. There are just so many things that need to fall into place and it just doesn't seem possible that it could all happen. Of course the biggest obstacle is money. Isn't that what everything comes down to? The value of our house, the price of the new homes, the amount of the down payment, and the successful sale of our home for the amount of money we need to move.

I've been feeling torn about a possible move. As much as I want to move to a bigger house, I'm not sure I can say good-bye to this one. We have so many memories here.  Our children spent their baby years here. I can look into every room and see a memory of one of them laughing, smiling, learning to walk or crying. During the day when I am struggling with all the issues that having a large family in a small house creates I'm ready to move on, but at night when the house is quiet and I have time to reflect about the last seven years it makes me sad to think about leaving. We want our next house to be the one we stay in for years and years and years. We'll have an opportunity to make so many more memories there, but it's always sad to say good-bye.

I'm not sure where we're going to end up in the next year, but I'm getting the distinct feeling that it's time to move on. I'm not one that embraces change easily. I love to think about it. I love to plan for it. But actually making it happen is another story. Right now I'm just praying for answers. We could definitely stay in our current home for several more years, but an opportunity to build a new home while staying in our current neighborhood/school district won't come along very often. I'm just so grateful to be in a position where building our dream house is something that we can even seriously think about.

I'll leave you with the link to our dream house. Maybe one day I'll be posting pictures of our new house.

http://www.ryanhomes.com/community/maryland/eaglehead-at-lake-linganore/avalon